Truth Time

Ok, I need to be honest about this, as hard as it is. I am struggling quite a bit at the moment, with "keeping my chin up" and "staying positive", when revision is nasty. It's a stupid thing, but it's when I'm tired, looking at exam papers and despairing, that old thoughts and feeling come back. And I really hope that good thoughts will come and over come them. I've got some great friends, but I ask if you are reading this and are Christian, can you please pray for me and my exams, that I will get thought them in one piece.

Now to make it sound like a news report!! :P (can you tell that I really don't want to learn about PCR??)
Firstly, the sky is pink. This is nothing to worry about, and will pass in about an hour, by which point it will be dark.
Secondly, I can confirm that the light house on the seafront has always been black and white, but Third, I'm sure that if you want it in red and white you could photoshop it!!
Fourth, My Japanese is done, finished, over!! I just really hope I passed, I think there's a good chance I have!
Fifth, there has been a spieght of grammar police checks happening, victims of which have included "The Whom" and "Doctor Whom". And this report will probably be stopped, checked, corrected and found guilty against crimes against punctuation.
Six, and most exciting, I have a possible placement for summer research here at the University! It will be looking at inhibiting RNase-E in E. coli. (does anyone know what I'm on about??)
And finally, this reporter is convinced that she has forgotten to add something, but she's sure it doesn't matter.
For all those that are revising, and have exams, all the best.
See told you it was dark!!
And Dan, great lamb last night!!

Clare signing off now,

good night, well evening, ish...what, its only 5:25???

Clare xx

Sorry

...I haven't blogged recently and that I've been a bit grouchy. My stress levels have been through the roof, mainly caused by a poster group project that we had to do, that virtually consumed my life some days. We seemed to have issue after issue, weren't entirely sure what we had to do, and still had to put it together by the due date yesterday morning. But remarkably everything seemed to come together and we all got over 90% for it, which was nice, made it more worth it. Today I had my Japanese Reading and Listening exams, and was convinced they weren't going to go very well, and had just about upgraded myself from a fail to a scraped pass when I entered the exam. Even doing a review at the beginning of the exam scared me, but it went well, my brain co-operated and the answers were mostly there. Thank you to those that knew about the exam and were praying, with out a doubt it helped!!

Life is generally pottering along, having to fight the dark days more than usual, and remember the good in life. My raised stress levels mean that everything gets to me that little bit more. I become that bit more clingy, cuddling teddies more often... :P but it helps, and the love and support that I have around me, makes life easier.

I still have more exams to come, but I'm hoping that things will ease of a bit, and the I'll have a chance to catch up with myself at the end of the exams before starting the next slog. Also that I will stop feeling so drained and tired all the time. I wanted to go to church on Sunday but didn't cos I felt so tired.

Hope that the positives have come through ok, because are are many, but I felt I had to voice the negatives so that I'm no longer carrying them on my own.

Ok, that's enough for now,

Until next time...

Clare xxx