Wednesday, July 16, 2008

It's like buses...

you wait for ages for one, then two come along at once. Yes, that's right folks, I'm back!
Second post in one night!!

Well, I'm back in Portsmouth, came back yesterday, having been in Bristol for nearly a month, but had a change to catch up with a few friends. I was a little concerned about moving back to the house on my own, but it's been ok as there's another girl living here called Emily. I've only met her briefly but she seems nice. I'm going into the lab with my project supervisor tomorrow morning which I'm very excited about!

So what else has been going on? Erm, not a lot to be honest. I gave my testimony at church, which went well; I went to my grandma's with my parents, including a trip to the huge Borders in Oxford; I've seen two of my friends new flats and stayed up all night and watched the sun rise on Clifton Suspension Bridge, in a moment of madness with a friend, but life's been fairly quiet. Ooo, and I got a new bed, and my room is really tidy, which is astonishing, which those who know how messy I am, know how amazing that is!

I hope that I will be updating more regularly. Because more stuff has happened, it just doesn't seem as important any more.

If anyone wants to read my testimony from the last two years, I can put it on my blog, as I typed it before hand.

I'll wrap this up now, and appoligise for blogging twice in once night!!

Clare xxx

Praise You In This Storm

There have been a few songs that have really struck a chord with me at this moment in time. In this blog I want to focus on one in particular: Praise You In This Storm by Casting Crowns. If you haven't heard this song, below is the video, sorry the videos not that great, but you can at least hear the song.



I also wanted to put the lyrics down as well:

Praise You In This Storm by Casting Crowns

I was sure by now,God, that You would have reached down
and wiped our tears away,
stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say amen
and it's still raining
as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain,
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away.

Chorus:
And I'll praise you in this storm
and I will lift my hands
for You are who You are
no matter where I am
and every tear I've cried
You hold in your hand
You never left my side
and though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to You
and raised me up again
my strength is almost gone how can I carry on
if I can't find You
and as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away

Chorus

I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth

Chorus

There are lines that are so relevent to me right now. There have been changes in my life. Two of my housemates have secured placements in Reading, and are living together next year. I've found myself a house with 4 other girls for next year. Another of my friends has got engaged, and one of my friends is two months away from getting married. There have been some major complications with financing the summer, and whilst a vague plan has been formed, as I write this its still not fixed. And with all these things, come all these different emotions. Since having a major chat with one of my friends, things have been more settled, but there have still been a few tears and wibbles.

When things get tough, we do sit and question why all of this is happening, why does life sometimes hurt so much. But as that first verse says, even when we go through the storms of our lives, no matter the cause, God is right there, whispering to us. We are not alone, whether we feel it or not doesn't change the truth.

"Every tear I've cried, you hold in your hands" God cares, our tears don't just fall for no reason, nor do they fall into oblivion, but our caring, loving Father catches each one. In the chorus, they sing of one of the hardest things to do, worship God when life feels impossible. God is unchanging, and is still worthy of our praise. And the best thing we can do when we feel down, caught in the middle of the storms of this life, is to turn our eyes back to God, to worship Him, give everything to Him, and to let go (which is also hard, really hard, I know, I keep struggling with it). The last bit of the song is taken from psalm 121:

1 I lift up my eyes to the hills—
where does my help come from?

2 My help comes from the LORD,
the Maker of heaven and earth.

The maker of Heaven and earth, the Creator, is willing to help, not only willing but wanting to help us. He doesn't expect us to do things on our own, and we can't do things on our own, no matter how hard we try.

This seems to have turned more into a preach than a blog, woops, but hopefully it'll spark something.

Stay tuned for the next post!

Clare xxx