One week on

So I've been doing this healthy eating thing for a week now and it has been hard, really hard. I think anyone who's been near me over this week will have realised that I was struggling. There are so many temptations around, it's easy to get caught up in it.

I have also found myself being more emotional and getting more teary than usual. But I've managed to keep going because of the awesome people around me. I have my friends praying and supporting me. I am also getting support from my tutor and one of the chaplains here.

I have had so much to think about and it's easy to lose focus. I have a week of 9-5's next week in the lab doing recombinant DNA techniques, that I have to read about this weekend :S. And I could list the problems that I can forsee because of all of this, but I won't because it will work out, I have great friends, housemates, family around me that will help.

Last Friday night, Ben, Dan and I gathered in the kitchen for a prayer session, which whilst being the tiniest bit random, was awesome. Tonight we did it again, and after the bumpy day today has been, it was really good to spend time with God and my friends, and have a chat as well as praying.

Whilst I still acknowledge that there will be bumpy times ahead, when I just want to attack a bar of chocolate or whatever, I know now that I can turn to my friends for that extra support to get me through. I know that there are many people praying for me and that ultimately God is right there by my side, never leaving me and never letting go!

This has been a bit of a random post, so I may re-read it tomorrow and wonder what on earth I've written, but I hope that it has made sense. And thanks once again to all those that are supporting me, in whatever way, it all helps!

Until next time...!

Clare xxx

Hold On

It is fair to say that things haven't be going brilliantly well for me at the moment. I've have a series of doctors appointments and a blood test to confirm a diagnosis. It has been playing on my mind a bit, and today, the final diagnosis came through as being the same as what was suspected. Please forgive me for being vauge, but I really don't want to write what it is. It's not life threatening but is life altering. I have been told by the doctors to lose weight...ah. But as I will waffle on about later, I have an amazing group of people surrounding me who are supporting and helping in various ways.

I have friends who are supporting and praying for me even thought some of them are unsure of the difference they are making. Believe me, it is making a difference, a huge difference, whether you can see it or not. I have been so blessed by the people placed in my life, who are being so amazing!

All the troubles and hardships will make us stronger when we get through them. They can show us our friends, and can remind us to let others help, and where our help comes from. Yes there are times when we have to fight the world and ourselves to continue, when we have those massive struggles but have to keep going, and follow the light at the end of that tunnel. There are times when it feels like everything is dark, but then you realise that there are glimmers of light breaking through the darkness, the light coming from our friends, those that love and care
about us, that walk with us, supporting, guiding, helping and sometimes being very honest with us and telling us when we are being stupid. Our brightest light comes from God, who sent Jesus into the world, to be light, and chase the darkness away, how amazing is that.

I know that there are always going to be times in my life that are going to be hard, that's part of life, but I also know that I have a God who loves me, friends who love me and that things will get better.

I hope that this makes sence. Thank you to all those who have supported me, I won't name you, but you know who you are!!

Clare xxx