I finally watched it, I've been meaning to watch it for ages and I finally did. Dan, Ben and I all gathered in Dan's room and, after what can only be described as delaying tactics (food, drink, web type things), we finally put the disk in and pressed play. The film bought up a lot of questions, and I think we all decided that it wasn't a film you could be quiet in or watch alone. Having Ben and Dan joke about stuff helped lighten the mood when the horrible stuff happened. It was a really good film, but one I'm not sure that I would want to watch again.
Last night we said that one of the reasons it was so hard to watch, was that it wasn't a fiction story, sprung from the mind of a writer some where, but it happened, it really happened, and it happened because of me, He died for me!! There are many times when its still a really hard concept to cope with. The reality of the suffering is very clear in the film. Sometimes, the only image you see of Christ on the cross is a man with a few scratches and a hole in his side, not the image presented in the film, the more accurate version.
I also agree with what Ben put in his blog. You can read it here.
Thats all for now folks!
Clare x
Thursday, November 30, 2006
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
Today...
Today was uneventful at best. I got up, stuff happened, I went places, saw some people, chatted for a bit, bought stuff, went back to the flat, went to Dan's. The end!
Need I say more?
Clare xx
Need I say more?
Clare xx
Another Day Another Blog
ok, so I only posted a few hours ago, but i felt like blogging again!! Already....!
I'm still sat in Dan's flat, with Ben as we have been chatting and just chilling for the past, however many hours its been! It's been good though, we talked about a load of stuff, and I've got steadily confused by Dan and Ben talking web design stuff.....argh!!!
Its been an interesting past few days. I had to tidy my room for a room inspection, which was fun. Once I'd started it wasn't too bad. I had a chilled out day today (yesterday) and watched Thunderbirds.......don't judge me for it....please!
Now it gets random....now ben is finding out what can turn the lamp on in Dan's room...don't ask!!!
On a totally unrealted topic, I'm going to Southampton on Friday or Saturday for Karen's Birthday!!!! Yay!!! It does mean another trip away from here tho!!
Hmmm...how come when I want to blog I can't think of anything to write...how random..........chickens!!
I'm going to use this space to attempt to explain the Clare thing...Ben started calling me Clare because I look so similar to someone else he knows called Clare and I just kinda stuck! It is also my middle name...the worrying thing is that I'm getting used to it.
Oh well...enough randomness for now...
Night all!!
Clare xx
I'm still sat in Dan's flat, with Ben as we have been chatting and just chilling for the past, however many hours its been! It's been good though, we talked about a load of stuff, and I've got steadily confused by Dan and Ben talking web design stuff.....argh!!!
Its been an interesting past few days. I had to tidy my room for a room inspection, which was fun. Once I'd started it wasn't too bad. I had a chilled out day today (yesterday) and watched Thunderbirds.......don't judge me for it....please!
Now it gets random....now ben is finding out what can turn the lamp on in Dan's room...don't ask!!!
On a totally unrealted topic, I'm going to Southampton on Friday or Saturday for Karen's Birthday!!!! Yay!!! It does mean another trip away from here tho!!
Hmmm...how come when I want to blog I can't think of anything to write...how random..........chickens!!
I'm going to use this space to attempt to explain the Clare thing...Ben started calling me Clare because I look so similar to someone else he knows called Clare and I just kinda stuck! It is also my middle name...the worrying thing is that I'm getting used to it.
Oh well...enough randomness for now...
Night all!!
Clare xx
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
Hugs
I though it was time for a random post about something related to my life: hugs. I love hugs, they are amazing things and can make everything feel better. When I got a little stressed out one day (I'd lost my butter!) it was lovely to get a hug from a flat mate. Plus, seeing friends, and to get a hug, really can make my day so much better. Also, to get 'virtual' hugs from msn, texts or blog comments.
I googled hugs out of interest and came across this blog post here, I found it really interesting and wanted to share it with you. There are many time when I just want to run into my Heavenly Fathers arms and just get the biggest hug ever from Him.
Anyway, hope this makes sence!
Big hug to everyone reading this, whether I know you or not!
*hug*
Clare xxx
I googled hugs out of interest and came across this blog post here, I found it really interesting and wanted to share it with you. There are many time when I just want to run into my Heavenly Fathers arms and just get the biggest hug ever from Him.
Anyway, hope this makes sence!
Big hug to everyone reading this, whether I know you or not!
*hug*
Clare xxx
Fusion
Right, I'm far to tired to write this, but I know that if I don't write it people will moan that I haven't blogged!!! So here it is, my view on the Fusion weekend.
We, Ben, Adam, Adam and I, travelled to Oxford Friday night, Dan had travelled down on Thursday and Sam was coming down later. Adam (Blade) had bought some cards, sensible idea!! So we had something to do. Most of us had a seat for most of the journey and eventually arrived in Oxford, to be collected by Dan. We drove back to his house, abandoned our bags in the kitchen and had time for a drink and PS2 playing before leaving for Fusion. Arrived at about 6:30, was still really quiet, but we had cards so we were alrite!! The first session was really good, we stayed for the after hours stuff, then went to leave at around 11:30. Sam had to drop some friends off at the Park and Ride, easy...right? Um...no. There are quite a few in Oxford, and we had got lost. So after a lengthy phone conversation with Ben, trying to give him and the others some idea where we were, they found us and led us to the right Park and Ride!! We got back at around 12:30 i think, plenty of time for tea and PS2!!!!!! We eventually got to bed at 3ish, Dan, Adam and Adam in Dans room, and Ben and I in the living room. Ben borrowed this massive blow up bed, it was taller than the sofas and took up the entire spare space in the living room. Fun!!!
We had set my alarm for 7:30, the time Dan said we should be up to get us there in good time. So, at 7:30 my alarm went off, and Ben and I dragged our selves out of ur sleeping bags and got up. We were kind enough to wake the others up. It only took three attempts and was well past nine by the time they were up, so we had missed half of the first session, oh well!! We had a good, if busy day. Two main sessions, then lunch, of rolls and stuff, then three seminars, tea (McDonalds...) then back for the main evening session. The speaker was really good and inspiring! We got back earlier, after staying to play cards eat cake and listen to the jazz band, and managed to make it to bed at around 1.
The alarm was set for the same time, and once again, Ben and I were up, with a bit more effort this time. We decided not to poke the others until 9, the time the first session started...so we missed that one!!! We got there with time to spare before the main and final session. So, guess what...we played cards...you seeing a pattern here? Then it was time for the main service. We were all still half asleep, but some how only Ben managed to fall asleep during the talk!!! We were sat on the floor, and he had lay down with a cushion under his head, so it wasn't that surprising. At the end of the service, we had to rush off because Chris, Dan's brother needed his drum sticks, which were in the car we had. So back to Dan's house briefly before go to meet Toni and Chris. It was great to finally meet them after hearing so much about them and reading Toni's blog for a while. We had lunch there, before deciding, well Dan decided and the rest of us just sat there, to visit Dan's church. It was a good service there, but we had to rush off again to get our bags from Dan's house before catching the train home again. It was a fairly uneventful journey home, I was sooo tired!! Then back to my flat.
I ended up going to Dan's flat where I watched two episodes of Torchwood. Then I went back to my room, and failed to get the early night I planned!! Oh well....
Today and Monday were fairly uneventful. Only one lcture yesterday, then worship training in the evening, and I didn't feel well today so I only went to one lecture today...oops!!
Now sat in Dan's flat, with ben, all three of us on computers....who said people don't talk anymore...???
That's it for now...you can stop moaning about a lack of blogging for at least a day of two...can't you?
Clare (or is it Ruth again?) xx
We, Ben, Adam, Adam and I, travelled to Oxford Friday night, Dan had travelled down on Thursday and Sam was coming down later. Adam (Blade) had bought some cards, sensible idea!! So we had something to do. Most of us had a seat for most of the journey and eventually arrived in Oxford, to be collected by Dan. We drove back to his house, abandoned our bags in the kitchen and had time for a drink and PS2 playing before leaving for Fusion. Arrived at about 6:30, was still really quiet, but we had cards so we were alrite!! The first session was really good, we stayed for the after hours stuff, then went to leave at around 11:30. Sam had to drop some friends off at the Park and Ride, easy...right? Um...no. There are quite a few in Oxford, and we had got lost. So after a lengthy phone conversation with Ben, trying to give him and the others some idea where we were, they found us and led us to the right Park and Ride!! We got back at around 12:30 i think, plenty of time for tea and PS2!!!!!! We eventually got to bed at 3ish, Dan, Adam and Adam in Dans room, and Ben and I in the living room. Ben borrowed this massive blow up bed, it was taller than the sofas and took up the entire spare space in the living room. Fun!!!
We had set my alarm for 7:30, the time Dan said we should be up to get us there in good time. So, at 7:30 my alarm went off, and Ben and I dragged our selves out of ur sleeping bags and got up. We were kind enough to wake the others up. It only took three attempts and was well past nine by the time they were up, so we had missed half of the first session, oh well!! We had a good, if busy day. Two main sessions, then lunch, of rolls and stuff, then three seminars, tea (McDonalds...) then back for the main evening session. The speaker was really good and inspiring! We got back earlier, after staying to play cards eat cake and listen to the jazz band, and managed to make it to bed at around 1.
The alarm was set for the same time, and once again, Ben and I were up, with a bit more effort this time. We decided not to poke the others until 9, the time the first session started...so we missed that one!!! We got there with time to spare before the main and final session. So, guess what...we played cards...you seeing a pattern here? Then it was time for the main service. We were all still half asleep, but some how only Ben managed to fall asleep during the talk!!! We were sat on the floor, and he had lay down with a cushion under his head, so it wasn't that surprising. At the end of the service, we had to rush off because Chris, Dan's brother needed his drum sticks, which were in the car we had. So back to Dan's house briefly before go to meet Toni and Chris. It was great to finally meet them after hearing so much about them and reading Toni's blog for a while. We had lunch there, before deciding, well Dan decided and the rest of us just sat there, to visit Dan's church. It was a good service there, but we had to rush off again to get our bags from Dan's house before catching the train home again. It was a fairly uneventful journey home, I was sooo tired!! Then back to my flat.
I ended up going to Dan's flat where I watched two episodes of Torchwood. Then I went back to my room, and failed to get the early night I planned!! Oh well....
Today and Monday were fairly uneventful. Only one lcture yesterday, then worship training in the evening, and I didn't feel well today so I only went to one lecture today...oops!!
Now sat in Dan's flat, with ben, all three of us on computers....who said people don't talk anymore...???
That's it for now...you can stop moaning about a lack of blogging for at least a day of two...can't you?
Clare (or is it Ruth again?) xx
Thursday, November 23, 2006
What is it with bad days???
Well, to put all those many people who want to know about the game out of their misery, here it is: Pub Quiz!! We, Ben, Dan and I, chose 20 songs, and cut them down to 10 second intros (well Ben did that bit!!). We had some brilliant tunes!!! There were three teams, and the aim was for them to guess the song from the intros, apparently not as easy as it sounds!!! I was going to list the songs, but I didn't think it was that important!!
Well tuesday was yet another bad day. We had a Forensic Biology lab to do with the lecture topic. I lasted about 15 mins before I left. I felt guilty for leaving and letting people down, horrible because of the subject, and just generally miserable...:(. But at least I had cell to look forward to! It was a really great group. We started meeting at around 7 but didn't finish til 11:50pm, some of us not leaving til 12:10!!! I was so glad I didnt have any lectures on Wednesday.
Wednesday was fairly uneventful...I got up, went to Dans flat, left to go somewhere else, came back, watched Torchwood, left again, had tea, met up with Ben, Dan, James and Sam to go see Bond!! It was awesome!! I loved it!!!
Today...well, after not getting much sleep again, I had to drag myself out of bed in order to get to the Chemistry test in time. It wasn't to bad. Then a gap, SSS1, tutorial then home, where I didnt do much. Sam invited me on another photo shoot, this time with Ben stood under a lamp post. Interesting! We went back t Sams flat for a bit, I came back here, and now I am up to date!!
Woo!!
Thats all for now folks!!!
Clare xxx
Well tuesday was yet another bad day. We had a Forensic Biology lab to do with the lecture topic. I lasted about 15 mins before I left. I felt guilty for leaving and letting people down, horrible because of the subject, and just generally miserable...:(. But at least I had cell to look forward to! It was a really great group. We started meeting at around 7 but didn't finish til 11:50pm, some of us not leaving til 12:10!!! I was so glad I didnt have any lectures on Wednesday.
Wednesday was fairly uneventful...I got up, went to Dans flat, left to go somewhere else, came back, watched Torchwood, left again, had tea, met up with Ben, Dan, James and Sam to go see Bond!! It was awesome!! I loved it!!!
Today...well, after not getting much sleep again, I had to drag myself out of bed in order to get to the Chemistry test in time. It wasn't to bad. Then a gap, SSS1, tutorial then home, where I didnt do much. Sam invited me on another photo shoot, this time with Ben stood under a lamp post. Interesting! We went back t Sams flat for a bit, I came back here, and now I am up to date!!
Woo!!
Thats all for now folks!!!
Clare xxx
Monday, November 20, 2006
Maggots and Bad Days
Well, I've had a bit of a bad day really. Had a nasty, greusome (sorry about the spelling!!!) on maggots and decomposition...I made the mistake of very briefly glancing at the photos...big mistake!! The first two lectures were a bit boring really, struggled to stay awake, then the third one was good. We had an interesting lecturer, we laughed a bit and had an - dare i say it..- exciting lecture... big shock :O. It kinda went down hill from there...when we had our introductory forensic biology lecture...a subject I usually enjoy! Unfortunatly, the topic to day was...MAGGOTS, eugh! But not just maggots...oh no...it got worse...we also looked at decomposition and maggots on bodies...ARGH!!! I felt odd for an hour after...and my skin creaps...I felt sick! Got back, was in a bit of a bad mood...oh dear! Then as I was starting to cook, I lost my butter...how??? Still haven't found it... :(! I think I looked obviously stressed...over butter...oh dear!! Then went to Dans, got confused...Sam's flat mates were in Dan's flat...how odd!! (nearly said ood!! hehe!!) Then Dan, Ben and I prepared the Ice Breaker for tomorrows Cell. Can't post any details on here yet incase the wrong people read it...oooo....but its very exciting!!! Then chatted for a bit, joined in or ignoored some random conversations, then back to my flat. Now planning to go to bed...at some point!
Ben - I've finished Rebus 1!!!
That was a random blog brought to you by me, Clare. Sorry about the spelling, I can't spell at the best of times!! And that's reminded me of a bad joke I won't share with you!!!
Bye,
Sleep well, Have a good Day!
Clare xx
Ben - I've finished Rebus 1!!!
That was a random blog brought to you by me, Clare. Sorry about the spelling, I can't spell at the best of times!! And that's reminded me of a bad joke I won't share with you!!!
Bye,
Sleep well, Have a good Day!
Clare xx
Saturday, November 11, 2006
Lost
I was going to post this last night, but unfortunatly the internet went down yesterday and only came back up at aroud 2:30am, while we were stood outside, in the pouring rain!! The fire alarm had gone off!!!! Not good!
Anyway, back to yesterday! I had a meeting with my tutor, followed by a tutorial, in which we had a test, then we had a lab at the Marine centre...which is out near Langstone Student Village, and we had never been to before!! So...we got lost!! I take most of the blame. We were relying on a map, which we found out later, was wrong!! So, there we were. Mervyn drove us down, then according to the map we had to get to the other island...so we boarded the ferry. After wandering around for a bit and asking a few people, we finally found someone who knew where we should be...back on the other island!!! We then had to wait for the ferry, and all in all was an hour late!!! But we made it, and the lecturer didnt shout at us!!!
Sorry for the delay, yes, I've tampered with the time!!
Clare x
Friday, November 10, 2006
Gangsters and Tigers
Today was the day of the photoshoot. Sam, one of the girls from cell, is taking photography. She had the brilliant idea of getting people to dress up in gangstery type clothes, and go to a local atmospheric pub, to take some black and white photos! We had already spoken to one of the guys behind the bar, who said that it was ok. So Sam gathered a bunch of people together who were willing. It was then decided at 5:35, that more guys were needed. So back to my flat, where somehow, I persuaded Lewis and Nick to come, nice of them!! We seemed to have a good time, and I hope all the photos come out well!
Then some of us went to a social at Tiger Tiger, and bar and nightclub in Gunwarf. It was arranged by Solent Community Church, and was a great evening. There was a live duo, a magician, walking around, loads of friendly people and a quiz! The quiz was fun! Even if we didn't win! I was on the "Three suits + 1" team, for obvious reasons if you'd seen us!! There was Dan, Ben and James in suits, and me...not in a suit!! I have also decided that to aviod confusion, and probably cause more, it is easier to introduce myself as Clare. I suppose I will have to explain that at some point!! But not now.
Tis bedtime now!!
Night!
Clare x
Then some of us went to a social at Tiger Tiger, and bar and nightclub in Gunwarf. It was arranged by Solent Community Church, and was a great evening. There was a live duo, a magician, walking around, loads of friendly people and a quiz! The quiz was fun! Even if we didn't win! I was on the "Three suits + 1" team, for obvious reasons if you'd seen us!! There was Dan, Ben and James in suits, and me...not in a suit!! I have also decided that to aviod confusion, and probably cause more, it is easier to introduce myself as Clare. I suppose I will have to explain that at some point!! But not now.
Tis bedtime now!!
Night!
Clare x
Thursday, November 09, 2006
Sieves...
Due to the seive that has replaced my brain, I forgot to mention something in my previous blog, until Ben mentioned it just now!!! Ooops!!!
On Thursday, I became the proud owner of a one pound note from The State of Guernsey. To most people, they would see no point in it, as its not like I can use it, but I collect them...is that sad?
So there you go, a whole blog dedicated to the fact that I now have a pound note!!
Hehe!!
Clare x
p.s. can anyone tell me how to spell seive?
On Thursday, I became the proud owner of a one pound note from The State of Guernsey. To most people, they would see no point in it, as its not like I can use it, but I collect them...is that sad?
So there you go, a whole blog dedicated to the fact that I now have a pound note!!
Hehe!!
Clare x
p.s. can anyone tell me how to spell seive?
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
Up to Date (kind of)
I suppose its time to blog...I'm rubbish at regular blogging!!
So...alot to get through!
As I said in my previous post, I went home for the weekend! It was a great weekend, lovely to see everyone, but interesting how easy it is to slip back in to bad habits!! Friday night I had a lovely home cooked chilli con carnie, cooked by my brother, how sweet!!! And it was his birthday! Saturday was shopping day, first Ikea for some lovely cushions and a fleecy blanket, then to PC World for ink cartridges. We went out for a family meal for Tim's birthday in the evening, then rounded off the day with Torchwood re runs, so I now know whats been going on!! Sunday I went to Salem, my "home" church. It was good to see everyone again, but wierd as well!!! I also seemed to notice peoples accents more. Then had a HUGE Sunday roast, my forst in 5 weeks!!! Then packed, boarded a train, and came back to Portsmouth!!
Got home, said hi, gave some Christmas decorations to Sam, ready to decorate the flat in a few weeks, and a magazine to Lewis, then left again for church. It was really good, finally left at about 9 ish, got back, put my tea in the oven. Our microwave stopped working over the weekend, smoke isn't a good thing!!! Then went to my room, kind of unpacked and went to bed.
Had a 9 o'clock lecture to start the day on Monday, and lectures through out the day. My flat is a good place for tea and biscuits!!! Saw the chaplain in the afternoon, went back to my flat, sat around, tidied, went to the kitchen, got blamed for anything that went wrong durring the cookie making process...!! Didn't do much else!!
Today, started wuth a test!!! Joy!! Then biochem workshop! Then a break, bacon baguette, not doing much, the SSS1. Met up with Sam, and took some photos near where we live, went to student cell, that was awsome. Read Ben and Dan's blogs. Back to Sams flat for soup, that needed a microwave, stayed there for a bit. Had a bit of drama when Sam cut her hand whilst cleaning a glass, so we called First Aid! Then sat around, came back here, got a drink, typed my blog.....and we are up to date!! Yay!!
Well...I'm soooo tired so I'm going to bed now!
See you later!!
Clare x
So...alot to get through!
As I said in my previous post, I went home for the weekend! It was a great weekend, lovely to see everyone, but interesting how easy it is to slip back in to bad habits!! Friday night I had a lovely home cooked chilli con carnie, cooked by my brother, how sweet!!! And it was his birthday! Saturday was shopping day, first Ikea for some lovely cushions and a fleecy blanket, then to PC World for ink cartridges. We went out for a family meal for Tim's birthday in the evening, then rounded off the day with Torchwood re runs, so I now know whats been going on!! Sunday I went to Salem, my "home" church. It was good to see everyone again, but wierd as well!!! I also seemed to notice peoples accents more. Then had a HUGE Sunday roast, my forst in 5 weeks!!! Then packed, boarded a train, and came back to Portsmouth!!
Got home, said hi, gave some Christmas decorations to Sam, ready to decorate the flat in a few weeks, and a magazine to Lewis, then left again for church. It was really good, finally left at about 9 ish, got back, put my tea in the oven. Our microwave stopped working over the weekend, smoke isn't a good thing!!! Then went to my room, kind of unpacked and went to bed.
Had a 9 o'clock lecture to start the day on Monday, and lectures through out the day. My flat is a good place for tea and biscuits!!! Saw the chaplain in the afternoon, went back to my flat, sat around, tidied, went to the kitchen, got blamed for anything that went wrong durring the cookie making process...!! Didn't do much else!!
Today, started wuth a test!!! Joy!! Then biochem workshop! Then a break, bacon baguette, not doing much, the SSS1. Met up with Sam, and took some photos near where we live, went to student cell, that was awsome. Read Ben and Dan's blogs. Back to Sams flat for soup, that needed a microwave, stayed there for a bit. Had a bit of drama when Sam cut her hand whilst cleaning a glass, so we called First Aid! Then sat around, came back here, got a drink, typed my blog.....and we are up to date!! Yay!!
Well...I'm soooo tired so I'm going to bed now!
See you later!!
Clare x
Saturday, November 04, 2006
Home
I'm at home!! Yay! I came back for my brothers birthday, which was yesterday, and going back to Portsmouth on Sunday evening.
This is the blog I wrote on the back of an envelope yesterday, during the journey home:
I'm so excited to see everyone again, but I've also realised that I've reached a place where I feel settled in Portsmouth! I am going to miss everyone. Being able to go to sleep and not be woken up again in the middle of the night! Knowing the there won't be people in the kitchen, no visitors, knowing that I can't just go up a few floors for a chat! Don't get me wrong, I am sooooo looking forward to seeing my family, people from church and Bristol. But Bristol doesn't have the Spinnaker Tower, I can't go to the beach or get lost with friends. If anything I feel more settled in Portsmouth than in Bristol! I know more people, just walking to the train station I saw someone I knew from Kings. That never happened in Bristol! I also go out more, see more films, go out for coffee...! Despite everything, I really am loving my life.
As I mentioned, I am going home. I arrived 5 weeks tomorrow, in Portsmouth. I woke up at 8 this morning, I didn't have a lecture until 1!! I eventually got up, assembled my packing, went to King Henry building, got a maths test that is due on monday, but I did it in half an hour and have handed it back in, went to the chaplaincy for a chat, went to my lecture, bought lunch, ate lunch, packed, washed up, left! normality really.
We're now sat at Southampton Central, must visit Karen at some point.
Is it just a British thing that means we don't talk on trains. We have books, music, food, conversation seems meaningless, so we just sit. Wierd!
Everyone seems to be going home this weekend: Ben, Stu, Sam, Dan (not planned tho!), Joe and Clare, in some ways I'm glad to be going home aswell. Its going to be so quiet.
So there are my thoughts, my blog, from the back, and front, of an envelope. And at some point there was a beautiful view!
Have fun!!
Ruth x
p.s. I might start signing this Clare (no i!!)
Clare x
This is the blog I wrote on the back of an envelope yesterday, during the journey home:
I'm so excited to see everyone again, but I've also realised that I've reached a place where I feel settled in Portsmouth! I am going to miss everyone. Being able to go to sleep and not be woken up again in the middle of the night! Knowing the there won't be people in the kitchen, no visitors, knowing that I can't just go up a few floors for a chat! Don't get me wrong, I am sooooo looking forward to seeing my family, people from church and Bristol. But Bristol doesn't have the Spinnaker Tower, I can't go to the beach or get lost with friends. If anything I feel more settled in Portsmouth than in Bristol! I know more people, just walking to the train station I saw someone I knew from Kings. That never happened in Bristol! I also go out more, see more films, go out for coffee...! Despite everything, I really am loving my life.
As I mentioned, I am going home. I arrived 5 weeks tomorrow, in Portsmouth. I woke up at 8 this morning, I didn't have a lecture until 1!! I eventually got up, assembled my packing, went to King Henry building, got a maths test that is due on monday, but I did it in half an hour and have handed it back in, went to the chaplaincy for a chat, went to my lecture, bought lunch, ate lunch, packed, washed up, left! normality really.
We're now sat at Southampton Central, must visit Karen at some point.
Is it just a British thing that means we don't talk on trains. We have books, music, food, conversation seems meaningless, so we just sit. Wierd!
Everyone seems to be going home this weekend: Ben, Stu, Sam, Dan (not planned tho!), Joe and Clare, in some ways I'm glad to be going home aswell. Its going to be so quiet.
So there are my thoughts, my blog, from the back, and front, of an envelope. And at some point there was a beautiful view!
Have fun!!
Ruth x
p.s. I might start signing this Clare (no i!!)
Clare x
Friday, November 03, 2006
When Tears Fall...
Ain't friends great! I am surrounded by a great bunch of people! Yay!
Ok, now it gets serious. I have had one of the worst days in a long time. I only cried three times...nearly four! Life hurts so much at the moment. Woke up, had an essay to write. Then get a text from Sam, she comes to my flat at about 9, then on with the essay writing and...the tears fall...why??? There was no reason. Then on to meet my tutor, blinking back the tears while we spoke...I don't know how I can cope with this...then the counsellor, more tears, but then that was hardly surprising...difficult stuff can make you cry. Then to top it off...was chatting with my flat mats, and we got on to the strange subject of overdoses...I've been too close for comfort to that subject...then someone said something, and that was it...I couldn't get to my room quick enough...it still hurts far too much at times...I can't even write this without crying...Help me!! Luckily, when I called Ben, he was in Dan's room so they came to see me, that got some strange comments from my flat mates...then we went back to Dans room, where we listened to music and chatted...can't really talk about it...not at the moment...
This is depressing...sorry...
Ruth x
Ok, now it gets serious. I have had one of the worst days in a long time. I only cried three times...nearly four! Life hurts so much at the moment. Woke up, had an essay to write. Then get a text from Sam, she comes to my flat at about 9, then on with the essay writing and...the tears fall...why??? There was no reason. Then on to meet my tutor, blinking back the tears while we spoke...I don't know how I can cope with this...then the counsellor, more tears, but then that was hardly surprising...difficult stuff can make you cry. Then to top it off...was chatting with my flat mats, and we got on to the strange subject of overdoses...I've been too close for comfort to that subject...then someone said something, and that was it...I couldn't get to my room quick enough...it still hurts far too much at times...I can't even write this without crying...Help me!! Luckily, when I called Ben, he was in Dan's room so they came to see me, that got some strange comments from my flat mates...then we went back to Dans room, where we listened to music and chatted...can't really talk about it...not at the moment...
This is depressing...sorry...
Ruth x
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
Why am I still awake?????
Well, that clears that up then!
I'm still awake, as you can tell. I have a lecture at 9, in about 6 hours, and right now I couldn't care less!! Why does it often feel like every time things are moving forward, everything shifts backwards? And why do some things hurt so much?
Anyhow, tonight was a good night. We had the first King's midweek service. It was more Spirit lead, less structured than the Sunday services. It also got its new name "The Boiler Room" tonight. There was alot of prayer, a short 'talk' from the pastors dad, and some worship. It was great, I found it hard at times, partly the praying, partly the feelings stired up inside. I, as usual, bottled them up...again! I really need to stop doing that! We then got some chips and went back to Adams house to chill, chat, play table football and Xbox. The Xbox is becoming a bit of a habit. Came home, remembered the book that Ben has lent me, that I put in my letterbox...and came back to my room to sleep, or at least that was the idea. Taken that it is now nearly 3 hours later and I'm still awake...hmmm... oh well, I'll cope, I hope!
As usual this is a random post. Oh, I also went to Tesco today, and had a few lectures...but thats about it...
So, night, or should it be, morning??
Ruth x
I'm still awake, as you can tell. I have a lecture at 9, in about 6 hours, and right now I couldn't care less!! Why does it often feel like every time things are moving forward, everything shifts backwards? And why do some things hurt so much?
Anyhow, tonight was a good night. We had the first King's midweek service. It was more Spirit lead, less structured than the Sunday services. It also got its new name "The Boiler Room" tonight. There was alot of prayer, a short 'talk' from the pastors dad, and some worship. It was great, I found it hard at times, partly the praying, partly the feelings stired up inside. I, as usual, bottled them up...again! I really need to stop doing that! We then got some chips and went back to Adams house to chill, chat, play table football and Xbox. The Xbox is becoming a bit of a habit. Came home, remembered the book that Ben has lent me, that I put in my letterbox...and came back to my room to sleep, or at least that was the idea. Taken that it is now nearly 3 hours later and I'm still awake...hmmm... oh well, I'll cope, I hope!
As usual this is a random post. Oh, I also went to Tesco today, and had a few lectures...but thats about it...
So, night, or should it be, morning??
Ruth x
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